I haven't spent a cent on food in the past 36 hours

because :
event at adm yesterday so there was a buffet so that was my free dinner.
manloon treated susie and i to chicken and stingray at youth park last night so that was my free supper.
my gramps treated my cousins and i to hakka yong tau foo at north bridge road this afternoon so that was my free brunch.
event at adm today so there was a buffet so that was my free tea and my free dinner :


adm is free food paradise. we get buffets each time the building hosts events and since the building is so bloody cool we get buffets on average twice a week.

which is why i now have (as termed by susie) bye-bye-肉 (aka cantonese for animated blubber which should have been your triceps).

and i must show you the bruise that appears on my right shoulder every saturday because of the beautiful frontrolls/backrolls we do in contemporary dance class :



and yet i still say i love dance.
that is how love should be man.

Did spell#7's audio/walking tour of little india

on thursday.
$12. not worth $12.
but met rosie mcgowan.
we were in the same class in secondary 1, 2, 3, 4. then i never saw her again. till i stepped into spell#7 on thursday and found her working there.
so we had to take a photo:


and more photos from that occasion:

I just bought and assembled a fan

all by myself because my room fan died yesterday.
but what would you know about what it's like to be an orphan.

I'm damn busy

this coming week :
1. shoots for the documentary on fathers begin.
i have 9 different people at 9 different locations on 9 different evenings to shoot.
2. work on the iro video begins.
i have to do story planning, scheduling and casting and settle those by the end of the week (client says).
3. work on the dramabox corporate dvd continues.
i just started on it today and it has to be done in 2 weeks.
4. i have to find finances for the financial proof letter for hk immigration.
i think i need at least 4k. bloody hell.
5. bloody annoying asian film history paper by next monday.
6. bloody annoying business finance presentation by next thursday.
7. supposed to be starting on editing the everyman footage for the dvd.
but i simply can't. because of the aforementioned reasons.
i just want to hug the floor and not move.
but i can't.

救命.

We are cute

the cute one on the left is jovian lim. photographer to be.
this was taken at lucy davis' cities bodies mememories class this afternoon.

Game show test game this afternoon

i dragged that car by a rope and it was light.
i can't remember the name of this show.
i am participating because jun whom i met at a channel u shoot earlier this year invited me to.
and because we can win money.
and because i've never been in a game show before.
michelle chong is one of the hosts.
we will each group with a mediacorp artiste during the real game shoot.
photo with another contestant, nash :


now i can say i've done theatre, channel 8 dramas, channel 5 dramas, channel 8 variety, channel u variety, crimewatch, corporate videos, a movie AND a channel u game show.
grin.
i definitely should become a care bear too.

Been swamped with things to do

yesterday :
spent the whole day finding and printing out all the forms i have to fill up and submit for my hong kong exchange.
went for salsa fusion class.
spent the whole night finding and choosing and matching subjects for my hong kong exchange.


today :
went for a meeting with iro's pauline/wendy about their video project.
went for a meeting with gip's desmond about their video project.
went to meet scott to discuss subject matching for my hong kong exchange.
went for scott's class.
will spend tonight filling up all the forms i have to fill up and submit for my hong kong exchange.
and there's gray's anatomy.

i also found out that my miraculous hong kong exchange happened not only because isaac is wonderful, but also because pauline from the iro is also wonderful.
and that my cousin debbie is also wonderful.
and that everyone is kind and wonderful at the moment.
i feel like i am in care bear land.
i shall become a care bear too then.

I am going to hong kong on exchange next year

because isaac is wonderful.
because i am damn lucky.
because people are damn nice to me.
so i'll be in hong kong from january till may next year.
doing exotic film modules at 香港城市大學.
come visit.

i'm affected by how bloody nice people have been to me.
i shall be bloody nice to people in return.
this week shall be be-bloody-nice-to-people week.
come ask me for favours.

here's a photo taken just now at asian film history class:


the one on the right is nicole chiang.
the one on the left is me pretending.
inside, i was annoyingly smiley.
because i am going to hong kong on exchange next year.

成天唱咗這首歌

(chorus) :

寧願犧牲也與你以愛捐軀
從歷史中見證這轟烈一對
愛到倒下去 浮沉是非中一對伴侶
謠言裏 人潮裏
尋求我幸福至少無罪
那怕走得再崎嶇
言論之中去見證愛情萬歲
未似對正常情侶
你我縱是殘餘弱旅 頑抗愛下去

成歌超動人... sammi萬歲!

Issac Kerlow is wonderful

because he surprised me with this email today :
" I know you have declined Soka uni in Japan.
I am trying to get you an INSTEP spot in City University of Hong Kong. would you be interested in that?
Isaac "
of course i would be bloodyhelldamn interested in that.
isaac is my dean.
and he is wonderful.

and i have begun fiercely doing the documentary on fathers.

天堂鸟 shoot 3

that guy beside me plays my charge in the show.
so every time i appear in the show, i will be acting with him. and hong yu, and chen shu cheng, and of course phyllis quek.
i am going to miss these 4 people.
because today was my last 天堂鸟 shoot. (i think)
and we shot from 8pm till 1230am in the studio.
which looks just like the real thing. and is not.


i feel fortunate tonight.
because my life is actually pretty fun.

Today i

went for business finance tutorial.
then went for singapore society tutorial.
then went to meet peach and widya at millenia walk.
then we tested if peach was pregnant.
then we drank and ate at balaclava.
then we did 2 things that i'm too embarrassed to tell.
then i went home.


this is the first time i've ever used a pregnancy test kit.
and peach is not pregnant.

Had lunch with eka

whom i haven't seen since 2002.
then went for salsa-fusion class.
then went to do stuff to the kimarie website.
then went for dinner with lincoln.
then went home to do homework and watch crime mysteries on tv.


eka is eka wong. and he doesn't normally look like that.

I am not going to tokyo.

but i am doing the waitlist round
because i want to leave this world so bad.

天堂鸟 shoot 2

was today from 3-5pm.
today's scene is the one after the bbq duck in the middle of the afternoon scene. so my character went with the other characters to chen shucheng's character's house to eat that duck and said "谢谢" and "味道好香". and because the duck was really delicious and we were done in 2 takes and i will be paid considerably well in relation to the amount of time i spent "working", i am still smiling.
and i still like phyllis quek.
but i'll never show it and she'll never know it because i'm damn vain about appearing cool.

after the shoot, my cousin treated our gramps, her family and me to dinner at this severely overpriced seafood place at thompson road.
so sweet to see littler cousins all grown up and buying us food.
that pincer-happy girl on the right is my generous cousin debbie yong.


and about my tokyo exchange dilemma :
debbie thinks i definitely should go
susie thinks i perhaps shouldn't go
rosie thinks i definitely shouldn't go
i still don't know what to think yet.
i now have 5 more days to decide.
and i still haven't spoken to any old, worldly person yet.

but at least i am snapping out of my state of ennui.
because i decided on a new life resolution today.
and suddenly i have purpose and direction all over again.
i will never tell you what it is.
but i will tease you by telling you it is something in relation to phyllis quek.

Results of the exchange program application

came out today.
i got my 4th choice : soka university, tokyo, japan.
i'm not that overjoyed about it.
because :
1. tokyo is bloody expensive to live in
2. i speak no japanese
3. their english website was last updated in 2005 so i have no idea what subjects they have
4. i have no friends in tokyo and since i speak no japanese i doubt i will have friends in tokyo
if you're wondering why i even put soka university as a choice since i'm so grumpy about it now,
it was my 4th choice because hong kong only has 3 universities for us to choose from.
and tokyo is a fantasy city.
but in reality, i'm poor and i'm chinese.
i don't know what to do.
i have a week to decide.
i want to talk to some old, worldly person.

Another person without a father

replied my casting call today.
that means now i have :
7 people who grew up without fathers
0 people who grew up without mothers
0 people who grew up without parents.
sheesh... men...

in light of this, i'm changing the project.
i will still do orphanheads later when i find the right people.
but for now, my documentary project shall be :
why i should love my father

so i am now looking for :
people whose fathers have abused / neglected / abandoned them.
email me at 13.sara@gmail.com
if you're unhappy with your father and want to vent it on screen.
spread the word.

other irrelevent notes :
i started work on the dramabox corporate dvd today.
i wasted alot of time on facebook over the past 3 days.
i watched 妄想, 三更二 and Kamakazi Girls in the past 3 days.
and now i want to be a "female thug".
just like ichiko/ichigo.

I embraced facebook

last night and it's making me all nostalgic.
all those people from my past all grown up now and soon we're all going to be dead.
sigh, life.

an update on my orphanheads project,
i now have :
6 people who grew up without fathers
0 people who grew up without mothers
0 people who grew up without parents.
that means :
1. men are irresponsible bastards
2. i am desperate for orphans and people without mothers.
dear orphans and motherless people, please please please come to me.

I feel stuck

like izzy on the floor in her prom dress.
just stuck.

but here's a photo from monday anyway.
taken during that lecture that makes me want to take photos.
this time it's elgin ho on the left.


(this could be a series.)

Spent the weekend clearing cobwebs

from my long ignored to-do list.
i feel safer now.
redid the kimarie website with a touch of disco.
and i'm looking for people without mothers/fathers :

I’m working on a documentary video about the lives and thoughts of people who spent their childhoods without one or more parents and am presently looking for people to be featured in the documentary.

So if you are :
- someone who grew up as an orphan
- someone who grew up without a biological mother
- someone who grew up without a biological father

I want to hear from you!

It doesn’t matter :
* what gender or age group you are
* whether that missing biological parent was deceased, simply apart or simply missing
* whether you had step-parents / foster-parents / guardians that were there (for you) in that missing parent’s place

As long as you grew up without one or more biological parents, and are willing to share your story on camera, please contact me @
email: 13.sara@gmail.com
with a short description of yourself and how + at what age you lost your parent(s)

Shoot period will be:
22 - 30 September

Shoot dates / times:
Flexible, dependent on availability of selected interviewees

Today was massive travelling day

went on an excursion to golden mile complex for lucy davis' class.
then all the way back to ntu for documentary class.
then all the way to orchard for contemporary dance class.
then i fell totally asleep on the way home.

golden mile complex was fascinating though.
it is a little thailand and a multipurpose building and a vertical slum.


we felt like tourists. that's alecia neo on my right.