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2007
was
work alot alot alot of work ntu dramabox mediacorp some money adm social excitement romantic excitement chemical excitement grinning about x and x and x and x nights alot alot of nights going out staying out alot suppers dinners computers alot alot alot of computers alot of shooting even more alot more editing first website first corporate dvd living in school crossing martin's path harry was my favourite professor a few As free food free rides free things walking home alot of walking home dancing contemporary salsa hiphop yoga alot of movies alot of plays some books amsterdam toronto space cake evil dead the musical show mi concert hk sg schoolmates adm staff iro staff dance classmates dramabox staff mediacorp staff ierc staff come and go facebook old friends new aquaintances the sims sims sims home still home grandparents cousins i'm getting bored and tired of listing cos it can go on on on i don't think you need to know i shall tell you instead why i chose this song because it is my favourite of the moment what i am listening to right now it feels totally like dark and twisty, mammon/magic/power-loving me but in summary 2007 wasn't too bad.

the end.

More nerd talk

humans as a genetic species suck.
without our brains to help us solve the problems in this world, we'd easily die.
we'd break if we were thrown from the sky.
we'd drown if we were thrown into the sea.
we'd burn if it were too hot.
we'd chip off if it were too cold.
we're one of the slowest creatures in terms of locomotion.
we're not armoured in any way.
that's probably why our brains evolved to be so big.

but given the evolution theory, then it's really quite worrying how humans are using their technology to right their genetic faults rather than depending on natural evolution.
eg. i am so myopic that i'm as good as blind without glasses. and yet because of glasses and contact lenses and lasik, i can still function and look non-myopic, so men will still want to marry me and i will still want to marry myopic men, and we will have little blind myopic children and grandchildren and greatgrandchildren (given no other technological improvements emerge).
this could spell doom for the human race if we ran out of means of making glasses.
similarly if we ran out of medicine we use to keep things like hepatitis, bronchitis, asthma, etc, away.
the way we're living now is so unnatural that everything hinges on the basically element : electricity.
we generate electricity from tapping into fossil fuels from the earth. which are so limited that countries are having to go to war for whatever traces there are around the earth.
we're doing great now but this probably will not last forever.
our only salvation is that human intelligence improves or at least continues.
because if we were to be thrown into the wilderness of nature without our lamps or weapons or heaters or water coolers, i think 50% of the human race will die out.
especially us fat and pampered city dwellers.

and i don't believe that humans are higher beings than animals in any way.
sure, we are smarter, but i don't think animals were "put here" for the sole purpose of being our food or our slaves.
and self-righteous, egotistal, selfish and cruel proclaimations like this :
"That is why this whole drive to prevent animals from going extinct is complete and utter nonsense. So what if they go extinct. Dodos and plenty of other species have gone extinct and no one misses them! They are not people, and they are not going to spend forever in heaven or hell! But people are!"
make me sick.
i love animals.
and i think that book makes people obsessed and horrid.

I wish i were an evolutionary theorist

a few days ago, i watched a documentary called "the story of us" where 2 scientists were asked to redesign the human body to facilitate longeivity by reducing the likelihood of age-related physical breakdowns. the end result was a human that looked dinosaurish : t-rex stance, woozy tail, huge flappable ears, bird eyes, etc.
yesterday at the dramabox year end party i came across a funfactsofdinosaurs booklet that came with this tremendously vein-tinglingly exciting 两张两张!!三张三张!! board game we were playing and i was fascinated by the whole variety of physicalities dinosaurs had with their armours and spike tails and all and the practicalities of these physicalities.
the cumulative result of these two instances is me newly fascinated with dinosaurs and spending today reading up on dinosaurs and watching the whole walking with dinosaurs series.
i wish i had studied harder as a teenager and gone into the field of science. cos although my mathematical ability really really sucks i do seem to have a natural fascination with scientific research and results.
i really wouldn't mind spending my life trying to decipher cures for diseases or what not. but that is no longer a possibility. because my life is limited. and i do want to do other things than just work on becoming a scientist. and i can't do anything about that. sigh. the helplessness of a non-scientist.
film just seems so fluffy in comparison.
now i understand why it is so freaking important to have good grades. even in primary school.
it is so you can become a dinosaur researcher if you so decide you want to.
hear that children?

She is nong poy

she used to be a man.
and now she's prettier than me. and 99% of the girls i know.
accept it.

What i did for xmas :

i stole $50 from a random male stranger.
amongst other things. like
1. 2am dessert bar* for 2 champagnes, 1 tequila shot, 1 tiramisu dessert thing and 1 scoop of chocolate ice cream.
2. thumper for 1 champagne.
3. mos for 1 jug of boston beach party, 1 jug of long island tea and dancing.
then i stole the $50.
ok i didn't really steal it. he gave it to me.
see, peaches bought us the jug of boston beach party. so i bought us the jug of long island tea in return not realising it was 6am aka the club is closing and we can't finish the poison. the jug was $58. then we were at the smoking area when this guy started talking to me. i can't remember exactly what i said but the deal was that i would sell him my jug for $50. and he bought it. like literally gave me $50 cash. and i took it. talked to him for 5mins. then the club closed so i left with peaches without even having to give him my number or kiss him or sup with him and all that bleugh.
later we went for breakfast at ghim moh market and i grinned non-stop about the $50 and peaches made me buy her a lot of food.
my recent lapse in clubbing had made me forget how easy it is to get males to show money when you're out partying.
like really, why should i pine for all these impossiblyhardtoattain people when hooking up with the most spend-happy males in a club is so much more materially beneficial?
i'm changing my philosophy of love.
perhaps.

(* 2am dessert bar @ holland v is owned by my secondaryschoolmate, janice, who is also the chef.
she gave us free tequila and ice cream so i'm telling you go patronise her shoppe.)

Q: which sad, sad person

camps overnight in school on the eve of the eve of christmas eve to edit?
A: sulky me.

Because i 講唔出口

其實我地好qi好loi以前都已經見過面。
只不過我唔記咗。
咁算唔算緣分leh?
2007年12月真正認識到你令我好開心。
但又傷心。又煩惱。
可惜你要走。
好才我都要走。
唔知我地幾時會再見。
唔知幾時我地會講再見。
我只知：呢一陣。。。我真係好喜歡好喜歡你啊。

The end of paradise

i had been loving my home for the past few days.
because my father and his family were on holiday.
and it was like i was on holiday.
the house was silent. and all mine.
i could walk about freely.
i could sing at the top of my voice.
i could go smoke whenever i wanted.
i drank wine every night.
i slept well.
i woke peacefully.
the world was a pleasant place.

but they just returned.
and thus the noise has returned.
the chaos. the screaming. the crying. the accusing.
and once again i am the root of all evil.
i am the shittiest, evilest bitch/cunt and i will burn in hell/die.
so i have to shut up and hide.
because the world is not a pleasant place.

it's good that i'm leaving for hong kong in less than 3 weeks.
it's bad that i may be homeless when i return from hong kong in june08.
but que sera sera.

at least i'm enthusiastic about going out all over again.

The byebyes begin

yesterday i went to watch susie at her latest job :
then we went for our last yoga class and said byebye to the yoga master and yoga aunties.

today was the last contemporary dance class :
so we said byebye to shuhong, liyun and yeeli.

because susie is going back to hk next week and returning only the day before the day i leave for hk.
so after today, i won't see her till june08.
she was my dance teacher/client/supper buddy/show-watching buddy/msn buddy/yoga classmate/canto tutor/hk gossip mag source/audience/aunt aggie/life lessons educator/muse/entertainment/favourite person/etc.
i will miss her like mad.
byebye susie.

More of the pause :

(amidst trying to sim as much as possible)

1. mon
shot the last of 缘之烩.
(the hair on the left is michelle chia btw.)

2. tues
went for the asian film symposium hosted by the asian film archive in the morning.
(that's micheal tay, another filmaker-to-be.)
then girlie dinner out to fish&co and bubble tea with peach and weenee.

3. wed
went for the opening of sinema @ old school.
(esther from originasian cos my cousin thinks she looks/feels like me)
(fish!)
old school is fab. one of the best original ideas in sg in a long time. and sinema too.
then we went to zouk so my cousin could interview drinking-driving people for her sunday article.

and now i'm here.
tomorrow onwards i'll be busy again editing an 8hour seminar into an 8hour video.
and iro wants changes to their video.
etc etc.
plod plod plod.
thank goodness we die.

Is this girl spinning clockwise or anti-clockwise?

she can start spinning in the other direction too you know.
but only you and your brain can make her change.
go on, concentrate, try to make her spin in the other direction.

(hint: if you start focusing on words and details or mathematical calculations she will spin anti-clockwise.
but if you space out or your mind starts wandering she will spin clockwise.)
amazingly freaky neh?

27 smashing hours out

we should start from friday evening.
my cousin called with compli tickets to watch "egret" @ theartshouse.
i had no idea what that was but of course accepted cos i'm pro-theatre and pro-freethings.
turned out it was y grec by cake theatre :
theatrisation of poems from the same-titled book by eleanor wong & madeleine lee
starring noorlinah mohamed & karen tan. dir by natalie hennedige.
i heart you noorlinah!
the next 25 hours were a flurry of travelling, being, consuming and people :
we went to eat dry meesua @ circular road, female mag's 50 most beautiful people finals @ arena, drinks @ china one, famous bak kut teh @ somewhere in river valley, drinks @ wine bar, sleep @ her house, errands @ sph/mfa, brunch @ sunset way hk cafe, deliver borrowed clothes/luggage @ my house, filmakers talkshow session @ timbre behind substation, and during all this i met for the first time some guy from sph mags, some guy who wants me to cast him in my films, no.38 of female's top 50, joolin from straits times crime section, the pro-dragonfly guy who makes videos for straits times online, john who teaches sculpting at sota, john the genetic scientist at a'star and most excitingly randy & nicholas, wenjie, ong sor fern, juan and sun.
it was damn fun.
(you're hearing sph so many times because my cousin is a journalist for the straits times)
thank you debbie and we should do this more often!

For zihan's entertainment

since the incredible tales post, i have done :
fri - videography for way of asian design seminar @ adm
sat - dped for baobao's house of sins (her march08 play) video shoot
tue - acted as a demon-possessed housemate for a homespace.sg ad
thu, sun, mon - (the sweetest of them all) finished editing the iro video!!!!
after i submitted the iro video on monday, my sullen face grinned and my happy person began simming.
unfortunately my quest for rampant, exclusive simming keeps getting interrupted by my having to leave the house to do stuff.
stuff like contemporary dance class today.
and videography for ntu gip's signing off event tomorrow (horror: @ 830am).
but at least the madness of the past 4 months is finally over.
on the right hand side of my blog, under "done:" is all the work i have been doing since august07.
and i did it amidst going through a semester of school.
so actually, i am rather proud of myself :)

又發生了。

第二次見到佢。叫咩名我都唔知道。幾時會再見我都唔知道。
但我知：我已經鐘意咗。