A very good point

a few minutes ago i told zihan on msn that i'm scared of not having friends when i go back to sg.
and right away he replied "since when did sara yang care?"
which suddenly reminded me that - yea since when did i care?

i guess i started caring ever since i started being with nokia just before i went to bed, just after i woke up, brunch, dinner, supper and all the inbetweens,
ever since n would call me to wake me every afternoon and facilitate all my diabolical desires,
ever since i started eating many dish chinese dinners with a huge group of people every other night,
ever since people started bringing me out to new places every other other night.

but actually thinking about it... when i get back to sg would i now care?

i think...

i think...

i think...




not.
the phase in hk was fun while it lasted but i miss the focused, driven, creative, undependant me.
fortunately, i will be back. very soon.

I hated sex and the city the movie

i am not i will never be i refuse to be like any of the women portrayed in the movie.
i will not covet a closet.
i will not covet branded dresses or shoes or bags.
i will not cry or squeal/scream at happy news.
i will let my best friend overgrow her pubic hair if she so wants to.
i will not believe that men are as portrayed in the stupid movie.
i will negotiate right away when my husband-to-be announces he is not coming to the wedding instead of dropping the phone and acting all weak and fainty.
i will give my husband-to-be-no-more a chance to talk when i later bump into him on the road rather than just getting into some hissy girly hysterical tantrum about my embarrassment.
i will not spend hours and hours thinking about men or clothes or jewelry.
i do not want to spend hours and hours talking with other women about our men or clothes or jewelry.
my main concerns in life are not men nor fashions.
shopping for clothes does not cure any upset for me.
men, i just want you to know that not all girls are like those in sex and the city.
women, if you relate to those girls in sex and the city, then i think you're deluded, pathetic and absolutely annoying.

Summary of june

i stick to nokia like glue see her when i wake see her before i sleep see her all day long and she brings me out for food for dance to see things i've never seen before to concerts to lkf to occasions to her office and we come home together and hang in her room or my room till 5am and we wake at 3pm and she doesn't go to work and she caught a pet snail for me that i named simonsimon.
n on the other hand calls me every noon msns me every day lunches with me takes me to mountains and villages to see the stars to auntie uncle pubs and gets lost and plays martian martial arts warrior feud in the forests with me and we club on wednesdays and that's when she reveals her secrets to me and she caught a pet ladybird for me that i named stupidbird.
of course there are other people like phoenix, carol, angie, kenix, my little student, my escort student, missy fi, my tuition agent... but the above just about sums it.

Orphans in literature

"Orphaned characters are extremely common as literary protagonists, especially in children's and fantasy literature. The lack of parents leaves the characters to pursue more interesting and adventurous lives, by freeing them from familial obligations and controls, and depriving them of more prosaic lives. It creates characters that are self-contained and introspective and who strive for affection. Orphans can metaphorically search for self-understanding through attempting to know their roots. Parents can also be allies and sources of aid for children, and removing the parents makes the character's difficulties more severe. Parents, furthermore, can be irrelevant to the theme a writer is trying to develop, and orphaning the character frees the writer from the necessity to depict such an irrelevant relationship; if one parent-child relationship is important, removing the other parent prevents complicating the necessary relationship. All these characteristics make orphans attractive characters for authors."

17 days before i leave hk

i am writing down all the things i have seen/done people should go see/do in hk.
for you for me for the world :
(in a very random order)

1. eat all the roasts. goose. red roasted chicken. pork. duck. hk has got roasting Down.
2. eat hui lau shan.
3. watch a cantopop concert. trust me.
4. walk around central and feel damn small.
5. club at lan kwai fong and feel worry as you walk down the sloped pavement of spilt beer, puke and broken glass.
6. there are pubs for chilling at tsim tsa tsui exit b and clubs for prostituting at wan chai exit b too.
7. eat Zha Leung (available at any porridge place) and Sai To Si (available at any cha chan teng). trust me. delicious.
8. shop at the shopping centres/streets at mong kok, prince edward, fa yuen gai, yau ma tei. remember everything on kowloon is alot cheaper than anything on hk island.
9. if you want to feel poor or go bankrupt faster, shop at the landmark at central.
10. sing k at neway/greenbox/redbox. you can eat and play psp at the same time too.
11. take bus 68x/60x from mong kok and end up in the very distant neighbourhoods of yuen long & tuen mun and be amazed by how much they are like mong kok.
(to be continued... cos i have to go out and play now.)

12. get tattooed at mongkok/tsimtsatsui. cheap and its where hk celebrities get tattooed. www.tattoo888.com
13. (this is cliche) take the peak tram and visit the peak.
14. sit on the ding ding (electric tram) on hk island.
15. rent a bicycle and cycle the trail that goes from shatin to tai wo. (takes about 2hrs to get to the other end. 4 back.)
16. eat hotpot after 9pm. (half price then.)
17. eat lunch from 230-530pm. (tea sets are more value for your buck.)
18. hike at sai kung and be amazed that there are mountains and no buildings in some parts of hk.
(to be continued again later...)

Fuck do you remember mappy?

jumping policeman mouse sega game gear mappy?
and digdug and that jumping penguin in antartica and outrun and of course mario 123 and rainbow land and mickey mouse in some castle and that chip and dale game and that dinosaur adventure land game and bart simpson's escape from camp deadly and that madly hard home alone...
it was the era of tv games.
it was my sweet childhood.
fuck i'm getting nostalgic here.

I feel i forget i make big plans

i felt worried about leaving singapore and all the work contacts i had made and my friends and my bedroom.
i felt horrified that a french guy fell and died at the foot of my hostel building.
i felt damn sad on may 26 when the exchange people left and my toiletmates moved out.
then
the next day, i forgot about singapore and made friends and started earning more money per hour.
a week later, i forgot about that french guy simply because i had no reason to go on thinking about him.
3 days later, i forgot about those wonderful moments of having toiletmates and enjoyed my utterly private living space and having nokia over every night.
then
i planned outings with my hk friends and what to do with all the money i made in hk.
i planned to go to smoke/eat/out without caring about walking by the spot that french guy's corpse was at.
i am planning to see all the parts of hk i haven't yet seen and travel china with nokia and n.
because
life just goes on and on and on.
shrug.

My student visa expires today

and i am still refusing to leave hk.
because i don't want to live in singapore.
because i want to buy gum. because i want to smoke in clubs. because i want cheap cigarettes. because i want to bring in tax-free cigarettes from duty-free. because i don't want to pay 7% more for anything. because i don't want 15% of my monthly salary to be automatically locked up in cpf. because i don't want my hard earned money to be used to pay the most well-paid prime minister in the world. because i don't think he deserves it. because i don't like that he increases taxes and his government's salary at whim. because i want to be able to protest against laws i don't like. because i don't want to worry about getting murdered for drug taking. because i want to watch hk movies and serials in cantonese. because i want to watch pornographic homosexual violent films. because i want more entertainment. because singapore is boring. because singapore is really really boring.
and i have realised that i can earn more money overseas.
and i have realised that i can keep more earned money overseas.
and i have realised that i can have more fun overseas.
and mainly because i refuse to see my hard earned money go to taxes that go paying the most well-paid prime minister in the world's self-declared salary.
because look, i don't even want to live in that country anymore.
so i really don't think he motherfuckingly deserves it.