Hk girls speaking english

* translation for the canto-illiterate :
1. "sister" --> je je (a ridiculously polite or marginally rude way for girls to refer to other girls who have better body assets than them.)
2. "small air" --> siu hei (petty)
3. "smelly" --> chau (name smelly means name has been blacked)
4. "jumbo 747" --> fong fei gei (literally let go of airplane which means to not go for the arranged meeting at the last minute)

ahh i miss my hk girls! sniffle.

Do you know that the world is gray?

just as i was starting to believe that there was love and care in the world,
two people keep verbally reminding me that there is none.
they are two of my very best friends.
so i listen to them.
in fact, we probably became such good friends before because i used to think just like them.
which makes me realise that hk made me a bit soft and sappy.
i felt kindness and generosity and as a result believed that there was such things.
but i keep getting told that there is no such thing.
orh.

慢慢的 my magical powers come creeping back

已經返咗兩個星期啦。

嚟兩個星期 -> 非常之悶。

我對新加坡的世界一d興趣都無。

我唔䱰意嚟度嘅景。

我唔䱰意嚟度嘅人。

我唔覺得係嚟度住一世會開心。

所以日子過得無咩意義。又悶。

但係leh，我幾䱰意我係嚟度有嘅私人空間啦。

有私人空間嘅時候，我就會開始幻想。

幻想一個比較美麗的世界，幻想一個比較美麗的將來。

幻想之後，因為我太過得閑，就會開始計劃啦。

計劃之中，就會發覺，錢好緊要。

發覺錢好緊要之中，就會開始覺得，成功都好緊要。

知道成功好緊要之後，就會開始變得，好 competitive.

and thus calculative and thus manipulative and thus rather wicked altogether.
and gradually i begin to feel that everything is as it was before.
the little witch who would,
is back.

Help the underdogs

this week i went out in search of a vacuum cleaner, a boiling jug and black cotton curtains.
i went to best denkis and harvey normans and tangs.
the cheapest vacuum cleaner was $89. the cheapest jug was $48.
i went to ikea.
black cotton curtains cost $52.
i am not rich.
and hk taught me that things are not expensive.
so i walked out haughtily.
i went to a neighbourhood shop at bukit merah (opposite ikea) and bought a vacuum cleaner for $48 and a jug for $17.
then i went to a neighbourhood shop at clementi central and bought black cotton curtains for $31.
that means i saved a total of $93sgd.
and gave my money to local business people instead of hyper rich global enterprises.
they helped me i helped them and i feel quite happy about it all.
you could too.

Ok fine

singapore has stopped feeling so strange.
but i have noticed i do alot more waiting in sg.
and as a direct result alot more daydreaming.
also i find have to find purpose everyday to feel fulfilled.
whereas in hk i was happy just to be.
i am also in a state of being not very excited.
and i miss what i had hk.
but fine. this is life. i have to finish university.

What happened to Singapore?

i've been back for 3 days and i can't say i'm happy.
Singapore feels strange and is very very pale against my memories of Hong Kong.

1. why is it so dark at night? i can't see. orchard is dark. the roads are dark. the area outside my house is dark. i can't see dammit. and not being able to see is boring.

2. what's with all the construction?! the area outside my house is under construction. clementi central is under construction. boon lay is under construction. orchard is under construction. before i left i was living in construction and now 7 months later i am still living on construction. who the fuck wants to live in construction?! diu.

3. service people need to start moving faster. when i take out money and put it in your face i kinda expect you to take it and give me a plastic bag and let me leave. not expect me to watch you talking to your friend for one onethousand two onethousand nine onethousand... !#@*(£@&!(@

4. the english... the government was right about this... we do need to start speaking proper english... it really sounds quite strange.

5. the flats look cheap and cheaply built. we look third world cos of the flats baby. consider tiling. until then i'm never ever considering putting money into buying a flat.

6. the fashion. there is no fashion. 1 in 2000 people looks good. i fear i may disintegrate into looking like shit very soon. but if i dress up then i just feel too pretty for everyone else. in hk there is a saying that if you don't dress up when you go out you are ruining the environment. obviously singapore doesn't have that saying.

all in all everything i see does not justify the money i have to spend to pay the world's most expensive prime minister.
i rather just use the money to buy a tiny squeezy piece of property in hk.
at least then i actually get to benefit from the money i pay.

but all this makes me wonder... what was i before? and what have i become now?
i haven't been away for that long, only 7 months, yet why do i feel nothing for singapore?
i have become a Quitter.

Ilufhunkong dammit

just flew back to singapore for the first time in 7 months.
people here speak english with a strange accent.
the buildings are ugly. the city is not spectacular.
people here dress badly.
i don't think i would want to put my money to buying property here.
plus what's with all that tax and i can't buy chewing gum and bring in cigarettes?
and i am not allowed to complain? fuck it.

and meanwhile, my darling hongkong ladies,
nokia, n, phoenix, kenix, wayne, carol, angie, etc,
i miss you all alot and you all should be reminded of how lucky you are to be born into that beautiful city.