Who has dandruff?

i see these ads all over advertising a future of anti-danduff days
but i have never ever met a single person WITH dandruff. ever.
bald people i have seen, and oily scalp people and frizzy hair people and untamable hair people
but who on earth has dandruff?!

Suddenly i notice people are older

and painfully obviously so.
the people i used to worship now have wrinkles.
my uncles and aunties look more like grandparents.
my gramps can't even move normally anymore.
all this gives me a strange uncomfortable feeling.
i don't see what is the point of life if it is impending death throughout.
the biggest thing i'm going to do for my kids is to not have them.
because i have this strange uncomfortable feeling...

(hmm)

you know when i was younger i used to think other people had life easier because they had parents.
but these days i keep hearing of parents being diseased, retrenched, depressed, etc etc.
and suddenly i see that they have a lot more to take on in the years to come.
whereas i can just move to antartica or become a nun whenever if ever i want.
and the best part is being free of all that emotional trauma.
suddenly, i see that life is indeed fair.
(mmm)

Wow 有人 love me 喔

and 唔单有她... 嚟派feel到好多人好sek我...
可能是时候开始相信人间有爱...
人间有爱
人间有爱
人间有爱
人间有爱
人间有爱
人间有爱

Super emo blurt that you won't understand unless

其實我跑來跑去咁多年由此至終都未變過。
你哋見我日夜追錢，對我的做法很有意見，是否覺得我過渡追求物質貪財貪得無厭？
我知道你們肯定唔知道我要的根本就唔係物質方面的享受。就算講你哋都唔信啦。
但是事實就係我追來追去咁多年真的唔係為物，卻是為了一個愛我我愛的人。
5歲個陣時，媽咪走咗失蹤永不相見，daddy將我dump在紛紛某某人屋過童年，之後我就不停找嚟個愛我我愛的人。
愛我我愛的人很特別。單單愛我是不足夠的。總要我愛先得。艱難就在嚟方面喇。
我會愛的人，好難找，好少見。因為我只愛那些沒有開心家庭，沒有父母關心疼愛，最好是孤零零無親無故的那重人。
我活了25年只認識兩個這樣的人。
可惜她們兩個目前都不愛我。
所以我需要錢。我需要錢來produce我的art，我需要錢出去attend things，我需要錢來travel the world，我做咁多都係為咗遇見吸引嗰個愛我我愛的人。
因為我對生活還有希望。
我不追錢的那一日，就係我已經絕望的那一日。你寧願我咁嗎？
由我去追啦。
沒需再勸落去啦。
你可能覺得我很變態，但係我覺得著只不過是因為你不是愛我我愛的人。

I've been to prison

oh yeah like Changi Women's Prison.
now i've ever dressed like a prisoner, gone inside the prison compound, seen and heard real prisoners doing what they do, learnt about the prison system, talked to police women.
i love what i do oh yeah.

Yesterday michelle chia told me to

"do something about [myself] since [i'm] young."
and when she said "yourself", she meant my body.
then today i met this wonderful man called Shitoujii at the Sg Tattoo Convention.
he does magnificent sketch punk tatts that you don't find in any old tattoo shop.
so now i want to be stick skinny with Shitoujii tatts and maybe lower lip piercings for rings and fangs.
i dream baby. i dream.
come see me tomorrow.